Reinventing my life

Another day, another blog

So for years I ve been busy with baseball, work, relationships and never really found time to do what i want to do. I was never really able to stay in touch with friends, so one october morning i woke up and realized, i m out of options.

I m now looking at job options, looking at options for my life, looking at where my friends have gone, how my relationships have come and gone and am left emptyhanded.

So for the first time in my life I m saying no to things...its a weird feeling and its not an easy phase right now, but I think it might help me re-focus what i should be doing with my life.

For the first time in years I m actually tryin to find new music out there and its actually givin me such an uplift. it seems like for a couple of hours at least all my worries are less of a burden and then i ll have baseball practice tonight and I m not coaching or anything, i m just playin around, jokin around with the guys, just takin a step back, sittin back, watching and having a good time.

Man its been a while. now i met my best friend last night, i m probably goin out next week for the first time in months and i m pondering going on a trip for new years.... i guess i m doing what "normal people" my age would be doing and it feels good....maybe i ve tried to hard....expected too much from myself....or maybe it was expecting too much from life, thinking that its this big huge task you have to master and fulfill, when really all you need to do is just live day by day and take in what you can.

here is a quote for you guys, i just came across, which in so many ways is true:

Why? I ll tell you why. Cause the Red Sox never let you down. Thats right. I mean - why? Because they havent won a World Series in a century? So what? They re here. Everye April, they are here. At 1:05 or 7:05 there is a game. And if it gets rained out, guess what, they ll make it up to you. Does anyone else in your life do that? The Red Sox dont get divorced. They are a real family. They are the family thats here for you.