New beginnings

NEW JOB:
I have a new job.... well yes....same company...but different responsibilites and different salary ;P
well still not the salary i m looking for, but better than before.
As for job, its just temporary till we get the next event and I can go back to what i m doing best, even though i m already doing part of it in a different position. I m called office manager, but I d like to think more of me being a project manager, as I m working on so many different projects at once, which is kind of fun, cause i like to be challenged.

NEW LOVE:
well its not really a new love, more like...no love. After breaking up with someone once again, it really seems like I might never find what I m looking for in a woman. Its ok, just frustrating at times. I should find my way without woman though.

NEW FRIENDS:
as always the place of friends will be replaced by other friends. Some will stay, some will go. Still it seems like no one listens to the words that actually come out of my mouth, but we shall see. I still believe that one day a person will suprise me.

NEW ATTITUDE:
As mentioned in my last post I m sick of tired of giving and giving and then in the end being the one suffering. I worry so much about everything and everyone and try to do my best to keep everyone happy and take away from peoples responsibilites, it burdens me more and more and I ve just reached a point where i cant do it anymore and I dont wanna do it anymore.
Its like people dont take me serious. They take advantage of me and they dont even care, so I ll take a breather, take a step back and refocus on what I (as in me) want to do.

NEW PRIORITIES:
Up to now it seems like Baseball was my number 1 priority. For some reason things have changed. To be honest I dont know what my number one priority might be, but one thing is for sure, its not baseball anymore. All the things that used to fill me with joy, they seem to be unimportant to me now. I used to want to finish everything in a hurry, now i let things lay around for weeks before I approach them. This years coaching experience has taken a lot away from the fun I used to have. Peoples attitudes towards me and their ignorance have not just frustrated and disappointed me..they have literally disillusioned me, and I m really curious to find out, how i will handle the next year, but i ll probably find out soon, as winter practice is starting tonight.
Lets see if my passion will come back or its gone forever.

NEW GOALS:
So my goal used to be to make an impact in life by helping people. Now that I ve realized I probably cant no matter what I do, I think its time for me to help myself. I should come back to "living", meet friends and family. Do the things I like before doing things for others who dont even appreciate them, or might not even bother to think what I went through to get there, because they dont realize it.
Still I need to find a solution to my loneliness and the possible future as a single person for the rest of my life...

NEW LIFE:
well I m not there yet, but I hope this will be the next chapter....the new life to have actually started. the passion, the joy, the excitement...being able to once again feel something......

for now i ll call it a day......

take care world, take care everybody, from now on you re on your own.....